The pressures of a new Biochemistry student
If you’ve read my previous posts, you’ll know I just started Biochemistry year 2 at University. I done my first year in Biology and up until now I haven’t had any classes on Chemistry for at least 4 years. I’m not gonna lie, this is beginning to get very difficult for me. I’m quite far behind in class, because half of the time I’m not sure I know what’s going on… All these things about molarity/concentrations etc. really give me a headache.
I know it’s only like the second week into the first semester, but I’m starting to really doubt myself. Can I really pass this year with a decent grade? Am I able to learn all this new terminology/calculations in a short amount of time?
Pretty much all through my secondary school (when I was aged 11-16) I was in the lower set for maths and that meant in my end of year exams (GCSE’s) I could only get a maximum grade of C, because I was on foundation paper. And by the way, a C is as hard to get on a foundation paper as it is to get an A in the higher paper. At the time of secondary school I envisioned myself to be a physicist or an astronomer, but the reality was, I couldn’t become any of those unless I was good at mathematics – and I certainly wasn’t. I never understood anything in class.
Until, I was in my final year doing my GCSE’s. I was 15 years old with a dream to become the best astronomer in the world. I decided enough is enough, I need to get a mathematics tutor and get myself on the higher paper, so that I can achieve at least a B to do Physics A-Level. This drive inside me grew and grew and it gave me a purpose and that purpose was to succeed. I eagerly found myself a tutor and I was so excited to start this journey. My tutor was amazing, she disciplined me well and taught me about 5 years worth of mathematics within the space of only two months. Did I mention I only had about 2 months to learn everything on the higher paper? Well, yes. I did.
I had never been so prepared for an exam in my life and even until now, that’s been the only exam that I’ve been so completely and utterly ready for. I felt so confident that I felt nothing could touch me. I even left the exam feeling more confident. When results day came, I honestly felt sick to my stomach, but I knew I done well. I opened it and saw the letter B in bold next to mathematics and I just couldn’t stop smiling. My dreams were coming true and I succeeded with only 2 months to learn everything!
* of course this is before I realised physics is one big fucking impossible shambles
I just really wanted to share this with everyone and also remind myself that with drive and motivation ANYTHING is possible! So I CAN do this and I WILL do this! Even if it means I need to pay for a personal tutor or eat my Chemistry book.