We’re always so quick to share the most ‘attractive’ parts of our lives with people, our new haircut, the car we just bought, a successful night out with our friends, the amazing new bag we just bought etc. But, we don’t ever share just maybe how many months of struggle it took to finally buy that car of our dreams, or how lonely and upset we felt night after night until we finally got together with all our friends, or how deeply saddened we were by our lover just before we finally decided to cheer ourselves up with a new bag.
Well, I’m here to break that trend.
My goal for 2018: Be more real. Be more raw. We’re all human. We all go through challenges everyday. I’ve had mornings where I’ve laid down in bed for so long, because it literally hurts to move and thought to myself “why do I do this to myself? Why do I work 13 hours a day until 1am, only to wake up the next day at 8am for my second job?”
Most of all, why does it look like I’m living a nice and rosy life on Instagram? As if I don’t struggle every single day with the most absurd people. As if I’m not just dreaming and fantasising about a better life for myself. As if I’m not having any doubts about how well my education is going to turn out. Am I even going to get a job in my field?
I guess what I’m trying to say is, I’m not here to live for anyones entertainment. I really don’t like the idea of painting an unrealistic life on social media. It’s daunting and quite frankly untrue, but it just makes me wonder. How is it the majority of us are painting this untrue representation of life? Why are we so scared of vulnerability?
There’s beauty in struggle. There’s beauty in battling your fears and insecurities. There’s beauty in confidence and not just the confidence that allows you to take selfies and speak out loud in front of people, but also the kind of confidence that allows you to be comfortable to admit to feeling vulnerable.
I guess that’s why I find comfort in blogging, it allows me to document my thoughts/worries/insecurities as well as all the good stuff etc. Also, please don’t get me wrong – I am not expecting anyone to bombard everyones Instagram feed with dark images and caption “I am sad” whenever they are sad, that’d be silly lol. To be honest I don’t expect anything from anyone. I’m just sharing my thoughts on the issues we can face with social media and how I want to better myself as a person, but how you feel towards it, whether it being a sudden realisation to view things differently or complete disagreement is down to you.